B L O C K E D

I’ve been having so much trouble posting here.

It feels almost like writer‘s block, except different.

It’s not that I can’t think of anything to write. I have a million drafts, notes, voice recordings… a million things I want to tell you..

It’s like, something in the transfer is stopping me. I distract myself, or I freeze.

I am curious about this. At first, I thought it was because of finances. I had to update payments on the Wix site at a time I felt I had none. I did just have a talk with a friend about how hard it is to feel safe enough to create when you feel you are struggling to survive...

And yet,

It seems different. I began this journey when I had worse finances, when I was struggling with horrific depression. I wrote myself out. And… I am creating— I’m just not putting it on here.

Why?

As I puzzle this out, I hope this piece serves as a remedy - to show myself that I can transfer my thoughts here. I hope this unblocks me from whatever this is.

Hmmm..